Creation and the Bedroom

by Julie on February 19, 2013 · 3 comments

 

Today, Wild Writing took me here. The poem that ignited this piece was ‘Domestic’ by Deborah Landau. Catalyst phrases from the poem by Deborah Landau are in pink.

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I like the bedroom man.
Take me to the door.
Take me.

Something longs inside me. Or is it something calls to me from inside? A longing that is sensuous in its flavor.

When I follow, I land down somewhere in my sacral bowl, sacral for sacred because it is so. The landing is clear and simple, but the way to getting there is anything but.

Down in this bowl where darkness reigns, there is a sweet intoxication, lover and beloved wrapped around each other, not even close to the clump of matter I used to think existed in this place inside my body.

Dakrness as in creation, not as in the many ways we sometimes see this place in a woman’s body.
Creation. A bowl. Ingredients stirred. Something grows.

Banana blossom

* I’m thinking about the orchard, how each morning I’d take my basket and wind my way down to the first tree along the path. Bright yellow bumpy lemons. Not once did She drop one for me to gather. I shook her, yet there was no letting go. Next, avocado and mangos. After the wild winds, the avocados, bigger than my two fists together, would lie waiting for me, sometimes with rat gnashes all around one end. Bananas. Papayas. Nonis.

The citrus trees showed me something. I will never forget. Limes, lemons, grapefruits, and oranges of all sizes and shapes, colors and textures; except for the limes, it was hard to tell what was what. And even then, the limes weren’t always green.

One grapefruit in particular taught me how we can be so many colors and not one at all. Pink, green, orange, yellow, and red spread out around its weighty sphere. I relished how She paints the canvas of her creation. I cried at how she holds on until we are ready to be birthed, picked up, appreciated, held, then eaten and enjoyed. Such intricate and supremely intelligent beauty She creates.

* A few hours later, after my harvest in the orchard, just on the edge of town, I drive by the uber-uniformed rows of corn plants, so closely planted there is no room for the wild wind to shake them.

Exactly the same height.
Exactly the same width.
Exactly the same.
Places please.

A cold shiver runs through me as I witness the raping of Mother Nature.

There is no surprise, no collage of color, no bumpy skin, no gangley, gnarly diversity.

There is only same.

Uniformed acquiescence created by the man who knows nothing of the bedroom.

I weep. We are out of order but not broken.

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 * My first shared words from my recent time on Molokai.

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Kandice February 19, 2013 at 7:04 am

“We are out of order, but not broken” That touches a deep place in me. While I grieve sometimes at this out of order-ness, there is hope because we are not broken. What a beautiful illustration of how beautiful and diverse Mother Nature really is when we let it be wild.

xo

Kandice

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Kristen Cochran February 21, 2013 at 6:24 am

We are out of order because we come from the chaos of cosmic creation. I have spent many years chastising myself for being so disorganized and out of order. It is only now that I am beginning to see that when everything is in it’s place and oh so neatly aligned that I realize something else must be broken. We are not living if there is not chaos. Thank you for your beautiful writing.

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Alexandra Telluselle February 21, 2013 at 1:37 pm

Oooh, I like it. The subtle yet very distinct discovery of manipulation, strangeling the natural evolution and growth; from mutual giving and receiving with gratitude, to man’s taking. Don’t like corn that much ;-)
Aloha,
/Alexandra

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