Gratitude. It’s in the Details.

by Julie on November 27, 2013 · 8 comments

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The morning light that makes its way into my living room is, more often than not, pink.

Each day, the ravens circle outside my living room window, speaking in a language I know in my belly.

My belly skin has a scar that runs across its center from the Hysterectomy I had when I was 29.

For the slightest second, my lips caress the skin of his cheek, and our eyes meet unveiled. We are ‘us’ for just a moment in time.

Time ticks by on my bedroom nightstand.

I pull back the sheets and climb into an empty bed.

I meditate in bed in the early morning hours, sometimes falling back into the deepest sleep when I am done.

I take pictures of flowers for meditation.

There is a beautiful flower shop just down the street.

I walk the steep streets of San Francisco, with homes like walled fortresses.

The wall I am facing holds images and words of things I never want to forget.

My late-husband is always in my heart, even though there are days when he doesn’t cross my mind.

My grandchildren will never know him.

I once remembered everything.

My body heaves with a big sigh.

I see what is here.

I am grateful for this whole life.

 

 

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barbara November 27, 2013 at 12:55 pm

i wonder if i can make a <3 here,
or to say,
in a few words,
how i seem to know your nervous system
and the heart that keeps you so alive
to this
gratitude

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Julie November 27, 2013 at 3:25 pm

Barbara – ;-)

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Dana November 27, 2013 at 1:02 pm

This took my breath away. Beautiful, moving, emotion-filled. Thank you. <3

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Julie November 27, 2013 at 3:26 pm

Breath away is a sure sign the soul is near… xo

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Alexandra Telluselle November 27, 2013 at 4:55 pm

I am grateful to have found you, an online sister in spirit, to fuel and validate my own journey, discovery and growing embodiment of the Sacred Feminine. Happy Thanksgiving!

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Julie November 27, 2013 at 11:03 pm

Thank you for the wishes, Alexandra. I’m grateful to know you, too. How important sisterhood is. xx

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Kim November 28, 2013 at 9:51 am

I am so thankful for your brave, beautiful, and heartfelt writing, Julie. You make me see differently and that’s what it’s all about. Today, from your writing, I am pondering those things we can’t and don’t want to forget, and how they can be walls at the same time.

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Julie November 29, 2013 at 7:48 pm

Thank you, Kim! That means a great deal to me coming from you. xo

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